My High:

Hmm... not sure. Maybe it was finally talking to Alex because I have been looking forward to that.

My Low:

I was pretty worthless all day... or at least felt that way. I didn't accomplish anything.

Listening To:

I'm watching CMT.

Last Thing I Ate:

Homemade hamburger and french fries.

Thinking About:

Establishing a regular sleep pattern sometime before going back to school.

the seventh day of august, 2000... a monday.

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"Sympathy constitutes friendship; but in love there is a sort of antipathy, or opposing passion. Each strives to be the other, and both together make up one whole." - Miguel de Cervantes, Spanish Writer (1547-1616)


I haven't talked to you in a while and frankly it's beginning to worry me! Lindsay is sick and didn't get to come. I wish ya'll were here. I'll be back on Monday. Talk to you soon! (I hope!)

Love ya,

Last night I did my duty and sent Alex an appropriately cheezy Blue Mountain card to express how I have missed her bright & shining face. In today's mail was a postcard she had sent me from her vacation destination. It's good to know that we're on the same wavelength. (1803)

I gave Alex a call tonight. She had just walked in the door. I guess that's good timing... but it's bad in a way. I'm never as talkative when people call me just as I walk in the door. I'm too busy in my attempts to "wind down" and I'm sure that it's the same way with Alex. Regardless, the conversation wasn't bad. And it was good to hear her voice...

I told her that I'd probably be driving down to campus Friday to take care of my degree and out-of-state fee issues... and that I would like to get together with her... and maybe watch a movie. It's emitting a very strong "chick flick" vibe, but I don't mind... I'm also getting vibes that it would be a good movie to watch with Alex. Who knows. She told me that she would pencil me in. It's still a week away. A lot can happen between now and then. (2100)

Consciousness... there's my problem. Of course, that's not to say that I want to be unconscious or anything... I mean, I'm not talking about a coma or anything like that. But being awake at strage hours is the root of most of my trouble.

I'm writing this at 4:46 a.m. I know that I won't go into work at 8. Why? Because I'm still awake at 4:46 a.m. I'm tired. Even a tad sleepy. Yet I remain awake. I now know how some drug addics feels. They know they are hooked. They know the drugs are bad for them. Yet they don't stop. Or try to stop and can't. That's me with sleep. I know I need it. I know that I'm not getting enough. And I know that not getting enough sleep is wreaking havoc in other aspecs of my life. But regardless of the facts... here I sit... awake while everyone else sleeeps. (0451/2111)

Of course, I have an excuse for not getting plenty of sleep this morning. Sometime between one and two, they paged out a fire at the hospital down the road from my house. We insepcted the palce but found nothing but the flashing lights of the fire alarm system.

It's been a busy weekend for "Smallville's Bravest." Saturday saw a serious accident and a working house fire. Sunday brough another accident and a car fire. There were the alarm bells of Smallville Memorial Hospital early this morning and another report of fire about six this morning. For a department that runs only 125-150 calls a year, six runs in 48 constitutes "busy."

The other day, one of the chiefs made a comment to the effect of, "it's a shame you aren't staying and going to the local university." Of course, if I was, it would mean a great deal more fire training and some good, real-life experience. A few years ago, a comment like that would have kept me here. A few years ago, I was a much bigger fan of the "real world" than I was of school. But now, I'm clawing to keep my youth just a bit longer. It's amazing how sometimes... the older you get... the younger you want to be. (0507/2119)


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